Tagged: #today, #mom died., #or maybe yesterday, #i don't know., #not that i would ever forget the day mom died, #more that i don't know if i've been sleeping too much or not at all, #it's just that whether my eyes are open or closed i can see her, #my mom, #maman, #my mother, #the woman my dad jokingly calls, #popeye, #so damn frail in her bed, #the woman who pushed me into life, #taken out of it as if....... nothing, #fuck, #my sheets have begun smelling like the hospital, #at least the ground still has the citrus-y smell of that detergent she liked,